So I’m pissed, so I’m gonna rant 
All week I’ve been focusing on the recovery thing. I have to drink a lot of fluid that is very hard to do right now, like “I want to gag” hard. I have to get up every 15 minutes and walk around to prevent blood clots, which means I don’t get much time to sit around or play on the computer. Which sucks because for a couple days there I was so fatigued from dehydration and lack of protein that just taking a shower exhausted me, so all I wanted to do was rest.
But I am taking in more fluids now (actually got in 48oz worth yesterday, which is epic and hopefully not overdoing it and bursting switches or something, which is apparently fatal), so I am feeling loads better yesterday and today, even though I am already behind today.
I made a post on the Grove forum before surgery that if people wanted to stop by, here’s my address, stop by anytime while I’m off work. A co-worker stopped by Tuesday, my cousin stopped by yesterday, a Grovemate stopped by Sunday. It’s been nice to have company while I’m bored walking and drinking walking and drinking.
But apparently I’ve pissed someone off because I haven’t answered IMs or texts in an appropriate time-frame about whether they can come up or not, that I’m being blasted by them and mutual friends now because of how avoidant and disappointing I am for being so disconnected to the internet and my text messages during recovery. As if the stress of this kind of drama is going to help my current situation in the slightest.
It’s all just jumping to conclusions. If I was avoiding talking to people, I wouldn’t have sent them a thank you text message when I got home from surgery for the flowers they sent to the hospital. My #1 pet peeve in existence is being accused of something falsely. I can understand other people going through a hard time as well, but just because I am out of surgery does not mean I am out of the risk zone. I am focusing on nothing but -myself- right now, and I really don’t care if that seems greedy or selfish or “avoidant”.
This is one of the most “wtf” disparages I have ever been involved in. My entire character is being questioned and I am very disappointing to people now because of a damn unresponsive text message. I’m only out of surgery a few days and I get to deal with this first thing? I’m sorry, I don’t think so. I am not going to participate in this, and I know this post will piss those involved right off because this is about them, and not me. It’s not my intention to end a friendship or make people angry, but I’m going to express myself because I am now also pissed off. If other people can make posts about me and how much of an awful goddamn friend I am for not responding to their request to come visit quick enough, then I can to express exactly how I feel about the ripple of chaos that has now ensued because of that insecurity.